//...ashita no watashi wo shinjitai...

LOBSTER PRIZE on Wednesday, February 26, 2003 @ 06:09 p.m.
Tired of all the "Win 50 lbs of Lobster" spam emails, I decided to reply.

Dear Lobster Prize people,
When I opened my inbox, I couldn't help but notice your odd inquiry in the subject in the email I was sent. I found myself being asked to open said email, for a chance to win the luxurious prize of 50 lbs. of lobster.
Ever since I was a young child, my little sister Susie Ann and I would go down to the beach and go lobster hunting. Oh what fun we would have! Lobster hunting till the stars came out. Your heartwarming email regarding the 50 lb Lobster prize made me nostalgic about the past, and remember the fun times me and my late sister Susie Ann (who recently and ironically died from a shellfish allergy) had so long ago.
Susie Ann's last dying wish was to win 50 lbs. of Lobster. As I sat by my little sister's hospital bed, her face swollen from too much shellfish, she told me her tearjerking words I would never forget. As I held her hand, she told me of a dream she had. A giant lobster had come to her in her dreams. This lobster, a messenger of Christ, had told her our family would achieve true happiness if only we had 50 lbs of lobster.
My sister told my mother of this vision, but alas, my single mother, a poor hippie from Russia had not a penny to spare. In search of a financial solution to our lobster problem, Susie Ann set out to Seattle, Washington to deal with a well-known fish dealer who was our second cousin's friend's roomate twice removed.
It was on this fatal trip Susie Ann would meet her horrible fate. After an all night eating binge of a variety of shellfish, our second cousin's friend's roomate twice removed (the fish dealer) found my little sister alone, cold, and huddled over a Taco Bell bathroom's men's toliet, her cheeks puffy as a result of the shellfish allergy.
Upon seeing this email in my inbox, I was reminded of the hardships Susie Ann faced. You, Lobster Prize patrol have given me a brutal reminder at the same time you made me remember the happy times. I'm not sure what I'm talking about, and I'm not sure how to regard the Lobster situation at hand.
So, for now my friends, to answer your question....no, I do not want your 50 lb. Lobster Prize. Thank you for your time and may Susie Ann forever rest in peace, though her dream may never be achieved.
Yours truly,
Betty Sue

Anyway...it's been a weird couple of days. My dad had surgery done on both eyes...>_> Painful. ;; It looks like he got beat up or something. O.o; That and my grandmother's dog had to be put to sleep. Fun fun. >_>

What's the dilly-o Ritsuko? XD; on Tuesday, February 25, 2003 @ 04:49 p.m.
Whee! I'm watching Evangelion on Cartoon Network. ^__^ Even though I have the DVDs and stuff, it's still pretty cool it's on tv. :3 But I think they edited it....but then I'm not sure if the scene I'm thinking of was in this ep or not, so I'm not positive they took it out. ^^; But Gainax said they weren't allowed to edit it....We'll see. :D But then took out the opening. ;; And they're talking during the ending. >< I like the OP damnit! Damn CN...peoples. :P

Before this they were showing Nadesico....I haven't seen it before but I've been wanting to. ^^ It technically helped to get me into anime in the first place. (even though yes, I haven't seen it...I' not making much sense am I? XD) Anyway, I thought it was pretty good. ^__^ I'm not a big fan of mecha shows, but the pretty art kept my attention. ^^ I like Yurika a lot too, she seems like a nifty character. ^__^ Shinji's screaming making my head hurt. >.o

Nyu @_@ on Monday, February 24, 2003 @ 07:09 p.m.
Nyuuu I'm so bored. ;; Me wants someone to come online! Imouto just left for Tennis whatever and stuffs so bleh. ŚD AND MAH TAG BOARD IS LONELYYYYY. XD; Not really, I don't care. XD Um...I'm gorging my ass on chocolate. XD (<--- really random. XD) I made my mom go to the store to get me a box of celebrations. XD WTF well I didn't make her. :P And she got bootleg girl scout cookies. ;; To go with the BOOTLEG POCKY!!!!! ŚD

WTF, I'm like growing more and more distant from my friends I think. XD; I mean, I don't know what they're talking about most of the time. ;; Their convos are about people I never knew existed nonetheless know enough about them to engage in a conversation involving them. XD; I mean, that kind sucks and all. :P And peoples don't know how lucky they are to be having "boy problems" and all that stuff. XD; But, I guess I shouldn't complain...I'm so pathetic. XD; My biggest problem right now is deciding who to cosplay. :3 Does that shout LOSER or what? XD
Graaah. I hate how I can't have a decent conversation with anyone. Ź_Ź It's not my fault, and I can't really say it's anyone else's either...it's just we don't have anything in common. (Haven't I been though this already? ^^; Don't worry, I'm not gonna get into it. :3) Ah well. I just can't wait till Otakon. ;; The part I like best about that is I can be myself because I know the people there know what I like, and won't not take me seriously because I like duhurhehe "cartoons." -_- Why must my interests always be so different damnit!?

And thus end the complaints and nicole being quote "ungrateful." XD;

Rejoice mah childrens! on Sunday, February 23, 2003 @ 05:50 p.m.
Just a boring day, I don't have anything to really write about, just wanted to say that I updated my Cels site. ^__^ It's a nice update, so go check it out if you're interested. :3 I finally got my scanner working. XDDDD

Tired of thinking of titles XD; on Friday, February 21, 2003 @ 10:00 p.m.
Whee...uh...so Amber just left a bit ago. XDDD It was great, finally getting to watch those FY episodes so my head wouldn't explode. XD;;; Evil Tama....*_* Single nekkid mute Tama.....*____*. XD; Yes. ^^; It was fun. Then we did the normal stuffs, kinda XD; Talked about fun priestess junk and ate dinner and whatnot. XD; We started to watch Evangelion too but then Amber had to go. ;; Ah well, always next time since I don't think I'll be getting more FY for a while. ^^; *coughBROKEOFFMYASScough* XD;;

Er...remind me not to point out my Nuriko/TasukixNuriko...infacuation anymore. XD; Yeaaah. And not to write stuffs in sharpie all over notebooks. XD; Me thinks the shounen-ai doujinshi and Sims photos scared Amber. ^__^.; Poor Kourin and her four gay daddies. :D *dies laughing* XD And all the crap I wrote on my folder kinda clinched it. ^^;;;; But yeah, uh, I'm thinking the shounen-ai thing doesn't quite work for everyone....^^; Chalk one up for Nicole and her weird-ass factor! :D Hooray. There goes any small speck of respect my friends may have had for me. ^^;

DAMNIT I want to find that "Dreams Come True" AMV. >.< I just had the damn thing! sogidhgiha j. It's driving me more nuts then it should. ^^;

...O.o on Thursday, February 20, 2003 @ 06:21 p.m.
Okay...I'm a bit freaked out at the moment...

So, I'm watching TV like normal, when the red emergency screen comes up on all channels, (it's usually there alerting about bad weather and stuff) but instead of saying anything about the weather, it said something about a 'Civil Emergency" and to turn to channel 21 for more information. So, then, at the same exact time, my computer just...shuts down. It was perfecting fine and it just...turned off. Talk about me, a total wuss, being scared shitless. XD; So anyway I turned to channel 21 like the thing says, and there's some old guy talking! Not even about anything having to do with nothing! Argh! I'm so confused. @___@; WTF is this civil emergency? ;; I asked my dad and even he seemed baffled...oi.

Amber might come home on the bus with me tomorrow so we can watch the FY eppies I got. ^__^ It's driving me nuts...sitting on my shelf...Nuriko calling to meeee...XD; I hope my parents and hers say it's okay.

In other news, I got the last two cels I was expecting.
^________________________________________________^. (My face at the moment. ^^;) The Nuriko one is so gorgeouuuus! XD He looks so peaceful, poor baby. ;; Wish I knew what episode it's from...ah well. I'm so happy I finally got it, after waiting quite a while. ^^ (Me, obsessed? What makes you say that?)
So, now I have all the cels I'm expecting, so I want to update my site...but my scanner isn't working! Damnit. >.< I might have to reinstall the software....when I feel like it. ^^;

Blah Pt. 2 on Tuesday, February 18, 2003 @ 10:43 p.m.
Since my life is SO exciting...*cough* I decided to join a clique. ^.~ I'm planning to join more too, right now it looks kinda lame with just one up. ^__^.; That is all. XD

*snicker* on Sunday, February 16, 2003 @ 09:53 p.m.
OMG...all the poor otaku peoples are snowed in at Katsucon! ^__^; Snowed in at the con! *snigger* I find that funny for some reason. XD Well, I guess it's not too funny for all the people who have to work tomorrow, but still...what better place to be snowed in? ^.~

Speaking of snow...*drools* I'm loving the 30 inches we're supposed to get! Teehee. It's snowing like no tomorrow out there. ^_~ My dad is assuming I'll have Tuesday off, if it keeps snowing all day tomorrow. ^^ That means I haven't gone to school in...*counts* 12 days! But who's complaining?

Why yes I am bored, why do you ask? on Sunday, February 16, 2003 @ 03:20 a.m.
What the hell were they thinking when they animated Slayers Premium? ;_; It looks like Saber Marrionette. @__@

More Otakon-related drivel XD on Sunday, February 16, 2003 @ 02:29 a.m.
Yes, more crap about Otakon. XD Can you stand it? XDDD Sorry, but it's currently the most exciting thing in my life right now, and one of the few things I have to look foward too. XD;

Anyway, Rylee said she was going to Otakon, and Nanette might be able to go too! XD That would kick ass if we could all be there. Buuuut I still have to make time to hang out with chibijeshiku too. :D Well, not just her but her...uh 14 friends. XD;;; She even suggested I stay with her. :o (Gods, that sounded wrong, but you know what I mean. ^^;) So like, that would kick ass! But I have to make time for everyone. ^__^ Hell, I never thought I'd be saying that. XD; About a month or two ago I was just complaining about going alone with my mother and now I'm trying to work everyone in. XD;;;

But just two words: OTAKU IDOL. Oh. My. God. As if normal people singing wasn't bad enough....otaku singing random anime songs and crude judges. XD; I even heard someone say they're tempted to bring a Simon cardboard standee. God help us all.

ZSjklGR on Friday, February 14, 2003 (again) @ 07:13 p.m.
OMFG! Just so everyone knows, and I know they care, I'll be staying at the Hyatt Regency for Otakon 2003! ^__^ Right by the BCC and the Inner Harbor! Happy day. ^___^ Wtf, if I decide to go as Excel...I'll be staying at the Hyatt...*evil Naga laugh* :DDD lol, okay, had to share ^_^

Eww, V-Daaay! on Friday, February 14, 2003 @ 04:29 p.m.
Yes, it is one of the worst days of the year. XDDD I drew my pretty *snigger* Anti-Valentines day pic and every thing but my damn scanner isn't working. XP In case anyone wants to know it was a cupid savagely eating a heart. ^_^;

Well, my lovely parents haven't seemed to forgotten February's most hellish day - they got me candy and stuff. :3 I guess I can't really complain about that. XD I'm a sucker for chocolate. :DDD

Nyuu....I don't really have anything to say. XD; Just wanted to remind myself of the day. XD I dun have anything nifty and anti-vday to show...*coughs and kicks scanner* but go see Imouto's blog and that kinda sums up the feeling. XDDDD

WTF on Thursday, February 13, 2003 @ 05:11 p.m.
Well, I finally got around to cleaning out my buddy list on AIM, since a majority of it was people I don't know, random people, and people that won't talk to me. My buddy list now has 17 people, 4 of those people have more than one screen name, and 10 are online friend's screen names. That's fucking pathetic. ~_~; But no one I know in real life will talk to me online, so I felt I might as well delete them...

Doodedoo on Wednesday, February 12, 2003 @ 03:18 p.m.
Nyaaa T__T I'm as bored as hell right now...I was supposed to go to school but then all of a sudden I was feeling crappy and I fell asleep and then my mom didn't wake me up, which REALLY pisses me off because I miss my club today, and any work that I have to make up will have to be done the next day, opposed to having my days off and the weekend to work on it. *dies* And damnit, I have cramps too, just what I need. >_> At least I'm feeling way better, and I can actually stay on the computer and stuff, which means I can be on long enough to talk to peoples on AIM! Yay. ^_^

I was looking through costumes and stuff whilst I was bored, cosplay costumes, I mean. There's been a bit of talk here and there about Katsucon, (on Friday) so it kinda got me in the mood. (Hah...wow that sounds wrong) and it's like so hard to decide this year! I know I've been through this already but I feel like talking about it so nyah. XD; There's nothing I have my heart set on that I really want to be, unlike the last two years...I go through different spurts every week. XD; This week I have a huge urge to go as Star Healer (Sailor Moon). Those fukus are *___* awesomeness. It's probably just an urge of the moment though, seeing as though I've been obsessing over Yaten Kou lately. ^___^; Whee, Yaten ~ XD *cough* Anyway, so yeah. I don't really have anything else to say, seeing as though I haven't done anything lately. XD;

X_x on Monday, February 10, 2003 @ 12:34 p.m.
I stayed home from school today...my mom actually never woke me up this morning. ^^; I would have liked to go to school...I hate having to make up stuff and I had to miss my Drawing and Painting class. X_x But then, there's no way I would have survived at school...I can barely keep my eyes on the computer screen. X_x

I had a really odd dream last night....I had this dream that all my friends and I got together for this dinner party, to honor Koyasu Takehito who just died. O.o; Yeah, I dunno how I got that in my head either. ^^; We were all like hysterical about it, it was odd. Don't die Koyasu-sama! ;__;

Anyway, I just got done watching this trailer for some new OVA called "Lingerie Soldier Papillon Rose." O_O; Annnnd that's my cue to run away. XD;

Whee! on Sunday, February 9, 2003 @ 02:03 a.m.
After whining and complaining and slaving (AHAHAHA. *cough*) over layouts, I finally just managed to finish one. ^__^ And I didn't even have the do that much! I just changed a couple pages from my old cels layout and voila! Done. ^_^ It's not that much different but it's definitely more interesting than my old one. My other one was so bleh. Even though my new layout just uses one image, I'm still very happy with it. ^__^ I still have to get opinions on it though before I call it done. X3 I should probably wait till I update until I show anyone...but you know I'm not going to do that. ^^; I like the style of it so much, I'm thinking of using it for the main page of niftylicious.net, granted I ever get it. ^.~ I am too easily amused. XD

Still feeling bleh...coughing spazzes are no fun. XP And I have like a bajillion things to do. @___@ I have to clean for my mom, get a sketchbook for drawing and painting, draw my half of an art trade with Pemos, (and why am I putting off drawing Killua? XD He ish kawaii. :3) make an anti V-day card, (I already have an idea at least XD) and something just reminded me that I need to color Reno whenever Imouto finishes drawing him. :DDD I'm not complaining though - I like doing all those things. ^^ (Except cleaning...) Better I have all that stuff to do opposed to school work and projects and such. :D

Ha. HAHAHAHA. on Friday, February 7, 2003 @ 04:19 p.m.
Still very sick and very very bored. XD; Now for something highly comedic and amusing.

You're Perfect ^^
-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
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placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
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Snow is fuuuun. on Friday, February 7, 2003 @ 08:54 a.m.
I think I caught whatever's going around, I feel like crap. :P Good thing it's a snow day today...otherwise I would have missed school, which isn't bad but I don't really want to make up any work.

Speaking of snow...DAMN did it snow alot. XD I knew it was supposed to but I didn't think it would be this much and coming down so hard. @__@ w00t. XD

I'm going to shut up and go now as my eyes are burning. XP This was an important and exciting entry, ne? ^_^;

OMFG I NEED A DOMAIN :D on Wednesday, February 5, 2003 @ 11:29 p.m.
OMGOMGOMGOGMGOGM

It's mine it's all mine omfg excuse me while I die I own it omfg :DDDD

Wait for the pic to load! It'll be worth it. :D My precious new Episode 52 Tamahome dream sequence Chuei cel scene setup with 4 matching sketches and a matching handpainted background!!!!! *squeal* :DDDD (Using the seller's pic by the way, till I get it.) OMG SO HAPPY WHAT A NIFTYLICIOUS DAY :D

Animation Club on Wednesday, February 5, 2003 @ 05:28 p.m.
OH MY FUCKING SHIT MONKIES SUCK MY ASS AND CALL ME JOE.

Er, so we started our spring clubs today at school, and I have Animated Films like I've mentioned numerous times. XD; But all I can say is...

I'M SO HAPPY I THINK I WANT TO CRY.

Mr. Robbins is a Dragonball Z fan. Mr. Robbins runs Animated Films club. Mr. Robbins draws good. Mr. Robbins has sent stuff into Toonami.

MR. ROBBINS IS MAH NEW IDOL. ;___;

XDDD I swear to god, joining this club was the best thing I ever did. We watched DBZ (The Freezia saga XD;) and all these preppy stupid 8th graders were like "Omg, we should watch Rugrats!!! :DDD" and Mr. Robbins was all "WTF?" XDDD

At the end of club he made a list where we could suggest things to watch. :D I suggested Fushigi Yuugi and Slayers. XDDD BUT I also saw on the list Cowboy Bebop, Trigun, and Gundam Wing: Endless Waltz. :DDDDD Which means someone else wrote that which means I'm not the only person in Harleysville who likes animeeeeeeeee! :DDD

A girl in that club draws really good and it kicks my shitty drawing ass. ;___;

At the end of class, when I was writing suggestions on the list, Mr. Robbins said his friend had lent him the Evangelion box set from a friend and was watching it. ^_______^ At that point we had a mini-conversation about Eva. :DDDD

Me and an 8th grade math teacher had a conversation about Evangelion. IS THAT FUCKED UP OR WHAT?!?!?! But so, so sweet. ^____^

I got my new FY tapes and I must now bug Amber to come over to watch them. XDDDDDD OH MY MONNKIES SO HAPPY GOING TO SHJKGhbieur hu/

Tuesday, February 4, 2003 @ 08:18 p.m.
WTF I TOOK THIS A BAJILLION TIMES AND GOT THE SAME THING EVERY TIME AWWTF WKLAJSELGHJK
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**** on Tuesday, February 4, 2003 @ 03:55 p.m.
Urgh. In another bad mood, wtf is my problem? XD; Anyway, I have a bunch of stuff I need to get off my shoulders. But half of it would include mentioning people by name, and I don't want to hurt anybody's feelings. (Even though that wouldn't always be the case.) Thus, every name (and some other things) that I am going to be mentioning will be replaced with four *. Do not ask me what **** means during any of this, I'm doing it this way for a reason. It's none of anyone's business. It's for me to know and you to wonder. Maybe you'll be able to figure it out.
Most of it is totally random and not at all really connected. Anyway...on with the long ranting.

Well, I'm feeling very ignored by some people, especially **** and ****, who have personally been pissing me off for quite sometime. I don't pay much attention to them very often anyway, for that reason.

Sometimes I really wish I could just give **** a hug. I know how mushy that sounds, but I do really wish we hung out at least a little.

There are some people I've known for about four years or so, but I don't feel nearly as close to them as I do to **** , **** , and ****, who I've only known for a couple months/a year. Thanks you guys.

While I do say some people don't like me and stuff, I can honestly say I would never ever want to pin that on ****. We've had way too many good times for me to ever think that. Thanks so much. ^_^

Sometimes **** says things, and I know **** doesn't mean them but sometimes they really hurt. >_>

I know **** and **** talk about me behind my back, and I know what they say because **** has told me.

Thanks to **** for hanging out and obsessing over **** with me. :D It means a lot to me, if I didn't have that with you I would be totally alone.

And, last but not least:
****, you can go fuck yourself for all the horrible things you've done and said to me as well as **** and god knows how many others you've stabbed in the back.

That is all.

Goddamnit. on Sunday, February 2, 2003 @ 07:19 p.m.
I left my fucking thesis statement in my locker. Shit.

http://www.despair.com/bittersweets.html

BOOBLES - Sunday, February 2, 2003 @ 12:45 a.m.
Hee, well according to a bunch of people I'm really boring to talk to. XD; That's always nice to hear. X_x Sometimes I am doing other stuff you know...so in the future just bug me and I'll talk okay? I know I hate it when people just go silent on me. ;_;

Hmm...well I have sort of a job, as my mom's cleaning lady so I can make money. XD; Yeah, I know how pathetic that sounds but hey, it's money. ^_^;
I'm trying to learn how to make a decent layout for my cel site...it's so boring it makes me wanna crap my pants. (Not sure why though XD;) I like the whole frames dealie but the rest is just so bleh. ;; I dunno. Speaking of cels, I'm browsing Rubberslug galleries, and this one Nuriko episode 33 cel someone has literally made me fall out of my chair, I swear XD; This person has three episode 33 cels, and a dream date one. THAT IS NOT FAIR I TELL YA. XD;;

Okay, well onto the topic of things that make me sound SOMEWHAT normal...I got into the Animated Films club at school, I can't wait till Wednesday. :DDDD I didn't think I would, cause last year I didn't get into a club I wanted. ;; But Animated films is American and Japanese animation. *dies* And run by Mr. Robbins, who is nice. XD

It's a shame about that Space Shuttle that blew up, so sad. ;; My thoughts go out to the family and friends of the Columbia Crew. :D

Na nanananananananananananananana Batman! on Thursday, January 30, 2003 @ 06:22 p.m.
I'm a bit miffed at the moment, but it's only because I lost an auction, when I actually have money. Buuut that's nothing serious so let's move on shall we? *cough*

I don't anything to say, really. I just like writing in this thing cause I am a loser. >D I added a Tagboard though! Sign! SIGN DAMN YOU! So yeah, just wanted to point that out.

Now....to the batmobile!

Quizzies! on Wednesday, January 29, 2003 @ 10:57 p.m.

You're a Shonen-ai Fangirl!

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Shuichi in a sailor fuku hanging over Yuki makes Nicole a happy fangirl. =^___^=

....I dunno. XD on Tuesday, January 28, 2003 @ 04:50 p.m.
WTF? I have like nothing to say, I'm not sure why I'm writing. I'll ramble about fangirlish stuff then 'cause I'm not in the mood to talk about sad stuff. I'm drawing Sora's puffy pants so Nanette can color them. X3 Happy. Uh...so yeah. XD For some odd reason I was thinking about Otakon, and I asked my mom if I was going to make a costume or buy one from Setsuna Kou's whatcamacallit. XD; And she said I could buy one! *happiness* Only now, I have to decide who I wanna go as. XD Ideas are:

* Tohma from Gravitation, but only if other people go too because I would look like a pimp alone. XDDD
* Suboshi from Fushigi Yuugi because I want a costume with props, and you can't beat Suboshi's psycho yo-yo's. >:D RYUUSEISUI!
* Excel from Excel Saga. OMG! A female costume. XD Well it hasn't been done much, and it would be tons of fun to hop around like a maniac like Excel. XDDDD
* Some one else from Fushigi Yuugi since I'm friggin' obsessed with it. XD Maybe Seiryuu no Miko, or Yui since Amber said something about how I was "so Yui" once. XD;;

Okay, yeah, that was really boring I'm sure. ^^; I'm outta stuff to say, so...yeah. Bye.

'Cause everyone loves to listen to me bitch and moan...-Monday, January 27, 2003 @ 04:03 p.m.
Er, well, that's not entirely what I'm going to do. I'm just kind of in one of those "self-induced-no-confidence-everyone-probably-hates-me-paranoia" moods. I dunno.

Everything I'm going to say right now is going to be really pretty random, and it's all stuff people have heard a thousand times. I guess I just feel kind of lonely, because it seems as though no one has anything in common with me. (I'm of course talking about my real life friends...everything I'm going to say doesn't apply to my online friends. ^_^;) I can't have more than a five minute conversation with anyone because there's nothing to talk about since I don't share the same interests. With anyone. It's so sad, I swear. If I'm not being labeled "dirty" (as in peverted...I take showers. ^^;) I'm getting strange looks or being told I'm weird, because I like "cartoons" and being lectured on how "cartoons can't be hot!" It doesn't do good things to my confidence.

When I'm absent, people don't seem to notice I was gone and today someone I know whose name won't be mentioned thought I was absent when I was sitting right behind them. Gee, thanks for noticing. I dunno, I suppose I'm just whining about nothing when I know I shouldn't, because there's people out there worse off then me. I don't know what to do.

Bad Days Suck. - Friday, January 24, 2003, @ 09:19 p.m.
Yup, that's right, I had a pretty shitty day. To start off, I finally did my speech...and it went about 10 times more horrible than I ever could have fathomed. I was pretty damn confident too, I had spent a whole bunch of time studying and memorizing it to perfection, I even repeated it a bunch of times in the shower this morning, without hardly a flaw, and I didn't even have my note cards in the shower. (Well...obviously.) So, I'm first to go today in Mrs. Moyer's class, which isn't a huge deal. Okay, so I get up there and began it pretty good, I got the first couple of lines out fairly okay. Then...I went totally blank. I forget everything I had memorized totally, and just completely froze and paused every 5 seconds. The camera on me, all the people...it was just way too much. My face was burning up and my hands were literally shaking, it was horrible. I managaed to just barely stumble through it and sat down quickly, and then I started crying a bit because I realized what a jackass I made of myself. Mrs. Moyer came over though and assured me that I did fine...which kind of made me feel a little better....hah. I guess. Not really. And the best part is I have the whooooole thing on tape to commemorate my retardedness. I wanna die now please. ~_~

Well, something good I guess is that I went bowling with Gwen, Amber, Catie, Joy, Michelle, Laura, Rachel, and Rachael, and I just got back a few minutes ago. I lost naturally, but it was still fun. ^_^ I had my purple ball, ehehehe. But...*dramatic music* Lane...33! *dun duuuun* XD; Yeah, so anyway some how during the time we were there, around 8:00, this great idea arose that we needed to have a sleepover, seeing as though we haven't in a long time. So I volunteered my house, since no one besides Amber has been there before. Anyway, so I called my parents on Michelle's cell and of COURSE they say no, which for some reason totally pissed me off and semi-ruined my evening. When we finally do work something out and all are allowed to sleep over @ Rachael's, I called my parents again and they said no again. So you can probably guess I'm very pissed off at my parents for not letting me do something yet again. Sigh. I'm not going to ask to go out ever again. And I smell like cigar smoke thanks to the people in the lane next to us whole stole my special purple ball. Damn them. Damn everyone.

*sigh of relief* - Thursday, January 23, 2003 @ 03:56 p.m.
GAJKHKDAFHLAJKSH!~!!! Ohh, I'm so happy and relieved that I didn't have to do my speech today. I was not ready at all, and if I would have had to go today I'd have been pretty damn screwed. ~_~; I don't have to go today...but the only catch is that means I'll have to go tomorrow. *dies*

Well, in other news in the exciting world of Nicole, (HAHAHAHAHA) I think I may have found someone to hang out with at Otakon if no one else goes, and I'm really happy with that because that means I don't have to walk around with my mom. ^_^; I was complaining about that in my LJ, and one of my LJ friends said maybe I could walk around with her and her friends this year. I quote -

"That'd kick ass 'cause we could hang out with Ukyo, Fred(Piro in case ya didn't know. lol), and Dom after the MT pannel on Saturday."

Dude! Is that awesome or what? XD It was nice of her to offer. ^_^

Hmm. I feel like talking a lot today. ^_^; Lessee....oh yeah, I'm probably going to sell two or three of my cels, because there's THE perfect shot of Miaka up, and I really really want it. ^^; I'm also going to ask mom for the savings bonds she offered me to use on that signed episode 33 Nuriko cel, which I couldn't end up getting cause I couldn't pay with a Western Union Bank Transfer, the only thing the seller accepted. >< Annnnyway.

DAMNIT! I wanna go to that Language Camp oahsegh djkhaklg! I said something about it again and my dad yelled at me and said "No! You're not going so get off of it!" *cries* It's the Dejiko voice audition incident all over again...XD;

Mwahahahahaha! - Tuesday, January 21, 2003, @ 10:05 p.m.
Oh my! I figured out how to make a blog! Aren't you happy for me?! XD Too bad it looks horrible in all screen resolutions except mine. ^^; Wow, look at all the crap I wrote on the side! I was really bored as I usually am so I decided to write a bunch of stuff! Now read about me damnit! Read and learn! XD Perhaps I'll take some of it out to make room for a tagboard, if it'll fit. ^^;